Winter decided it was not done yet. It has been very cold the past few days. With the wind -5 C during the day, sometimes -10. During the night it has been similarily cold. You can still tell it is spring however because it is still light out at 6pm :) Oooh the simple pleasures in life!
Another year almost here
October 7th will be two years. Two years that she has been gone. I can't say I 'had' a daughter. That seems like such blasphemy. The correct term to me is 'HAVE' a daughter. But she is no longer huggable. I can no longer hear her laughter or her voice. I can't look forward to any more of her accomplishments because there are none. Autumn again, and it's the same smell in the air. The same quirky wind and dampening light. The time of year I have always loved. Now it's also the time of year that I remember the knock on my door. The face that uttered words telling me she was gone. Autumn décor goes up, as does a sense of dread. Macabre song of leaves in the trees. This year also has included the end of my marriage. Though truthfully it ended long ago, it took a long time to realize that there was no light to sustain it. Just angry words and poison. Seeds from the harvest, in fruit that is past its time, Sink into the earth. From the decay comes life they...
I know! I got all excited driving the kids to Tae Kwon Do this week because it was still light(ish). At 5.45pm! OK, it was dark on the way home at 6.15pm but, hey, spring is a-coming!
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